iconic people - my life
As I woke up on this Sunday, way to late, I let my mind float away in thoughts! Thoughts about the people that I have surrounded myself with before and the ones that I choose today. Of course not just my choice, just as much the choice of the people who want me to be included in their life. If someone really lets me down, I cut the connection immidiately with no regrets and never to return. These people are forgotten for me and layed aside and I am actually surprised how easy these desicions are for me nowadays :) Another thing with me is that I really love spending time all by myself. Everyday of the week I rather be alone, than having to be close to someone or someones that I do not click with. Or as Oscar Wilde put it "To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance" :)
Lately I have discovered, even more frequently than ever before, how judgemental people really are. Who have the right to critizises a person for the friends they choose to have? Are for example your friends choices in life and actions something that you yourself have to be countable for? Lately I have heard everything from that I have friends that are too old, friends who are participants in silly realityshows, friends that are too wild and sometimes even to lame? I have always in my life been judged from the perspecive of my beauty, not so much by men though ;) Beauty can be a blessing, at the same time a curse. Envy is one curse that can hit a beauty another one is that beauty can stand in the way of being taken seriously.
Nowadays I am very good at observing, observing who is real and legit in their connection with me and have my back and stands up for our friendship. I I do have many acquatiances in life. You know people you hang out with, sometimes partying with and so on. I am very well aware of the difference between friends and acquatiances in life. I acknowledge that I do need them both in leisure and in business. In my younger days I felt like it was a blurry line between them both, now it has become almost crystal clear.
When it comes to love then? Well, if a person can not publically stand for being interested in you from the beginning, why wait then for it? Why wait for something so uncertain and unpassionate as struggling with love in the beginning, at that time when love should actually feel like the most powerful drive? I have never hunted love, maybe so due to that I am very confident that love always will find its way all by itself someday in someway :) <3